Confessions of a 21st Century Writer

image of handwritten journal entry

It felt like the walls were closing in, the room growing smaller.

My heart was hammering hard enough that I could see my pulse against the back of my eyes.

I was having trouble breathing, an automatic function that was suddenly requiring conscious thought.

Sounds were too loud. Lights were too bright.

The lab’s normal smell of yeast — food for the stock of fruit flies — had grown pungent, vaguely offensive.

The people around me felt sinister, I avoided them.

I knew — on a primal level I hadn’t visited before or since — that I had to get out. I was trapped in a box, like an animal.

What does any of this have to do with marketing or writing or business?

Funny you should ask …

Turns out, everything.

The movie Footloose, and the battle for your brain

I’ve always been a writer.

Writing is a strange animal. It can be an art and it can be a vocation, but it’s seldom both.

People who write for a living don’t usually think of themselves as artists, and people who write as an art don’t usually make any money doing it.

For me, it was always an art. Oh, sure … as an artist, I knew all about those people out there who made a living by twisting writing into something unnatural — creating nonfiction or ad copy — but that was entirely different from what I did.

That kind of “assembling words into sentences” was, as far as I was concerned, more akin to accounting than writing.

What I did with words was pure, blue-sky creation.

So, accordingly, I did what artists do. I made my art, I let it be what it wanted to be … and when it was done, I tried to sell it.

And I got precisely … nowhere.

The whole of the endeavor — from the time spent creating to the time spent failing at selling — really pissed off the left side of my brain, which was skeptical of this art crap and realistic about its lack of income potential.

Funny organ, the brain. They say the right side handles creativity and the left side handles logic and taking care of business, making the two a bit of an odd couple.

Personally, I imagine the halves of the brain as Kevin Bacon versus Jon Lithgow in the movie Footloose.

The right side wants the left side to chill out and let its hair down. The left side wants the right side to stop that unholy dancing and get a job already.

So while the right side of my brain was busy living the dream, the left side packed its briefcase, put on its dress hat and tie, and hit the streets to find me something productive to do with my time.

“What was I good at that might actually make a buck someday?” it asked.

“Science,” it said.

And this made sense. Really it did. I’d graduated first in my class from high school, then summa cum laude from college with a degree in genetics.

I was good at left-brain stuff. I was good enough, it turned out, to warrant a Ph.D. fellowship at Case Western Reserve University, where I’d get paid (pitifully, but paid nonetheless) to take classes in the A.M. and study fruit flies and electrophoresis in the afternoons.

After graduation, I could get a paid postdoc position or two, then a lucrative job at a research firm or pharmaceutical company.

Problem solved. The left side of my brain was jubilant.

But that’s where the trouble started.

How fruit flies helped make me the writer I am today

When I started at CWRU, I stopped writing. I had to.

I had a long commute, long days in the lab, and a wedding to prepare for back home. I’d been a hybrid right/left-brain guy, but I transitioned.

I became left-focused.

And that would have been fine, except for one thing: I wasn’t meant to do science. I was meant to write.

A very loud, very pushy part of me knew that all along. I disliked everything about CWRU from the day I was offered the fellowship. I disliked the campus. I disliked the work. I disliked the fruit flies the lab used for experiments.

And, even though the people were nice enough, I disliked them for their single-minded focus on science. Don’t these people ever just hang out and be ridiculous? I wondered. Will my casual jokes be wasted, and will they ever understand my pop culture references?

But I ignored all of that, because you’ve gotta make a living. Writing was great, but art almost never manages to pay the rent.

I told myself that the situation I was going into was pretty cool. I got to use fancy machines. I got to play with chemicals. And hey … I was (and still am) interested in science.

So I ignored the voices of protest … until they became insistent.

Until workday mornings started to seem blacker and darker than they actually were. Until I started getting indigestion and a nervous heartbeat. Until I started being spooked by the most innocuous things, and until I started seeking out constant company because being alone terrified me.

Until, eventually, I started to have full-blown panic attacks.

And when that happened, I immediately did two things, both of which came out of instinct.

First, I left my program and the labs and refused to look back. I had no other training and no prospects, but it didn’t matter. This was about survival. I had to leave.

The second thing I did seemed to happen by chance… but looking back now, I see that it was far from coincidental.

I started to write again.

What it means to be a writer

It took six months away from the lab, pursuing a fulfilling, upwardly-mobile career as a Borders Bookstore cafe barista, before I stopped being afraid of my own shadow and began to feel like myself again.

During those months, I didn’t make much money. I didn’t become more realized as a businessperson.

It probably looked from the outside (and to my soon-to-be-in-laws; thanks, Frank and Carole, for hanging in there) as if I were wasting my life. But it didn’t matter. I was free.

And more importantly, I was writing.

The fruit of that tumultuous half-year was a 700-page monster of a humor novel about an uprising at a bagel deli.

It was loosely based on the places and the people I’d known before I’d tried science as a life path, and was my way of going back to a time when I felt fulfilled, happy, and safe. When I’d left that life and begun my “career,” it had felt like a death.

Writing the novel was my way of grieving.

When the novel was done, I tried to pitch it to agents and failed completely, but it didn’t matter. Writing that novel wasn’t about making money or becoming famous.

It was about healing.

That book was about reminding myself who I was, and what I was supposed to be doing with my life.

When I got married the next year, I had to declare my occupation on our marriage license.

At the time, I was still a cafe barista and had never made a dime by writing words, but when the clerk asked what I did, I told him I was a writer. I still remember how saying that made me feel.

You tell people that you’re a writer, and they don’t get it.

They’re mired in the left-brain / right-brain dichotomy, uncertain how you could “be” something that’s usually considered a hobby.

So they’ll ask what you write, and who you write for … but ultimately it comes down to one question: “What does that mean, ‘You’re a writer’?”

I have an answer to that question now.

It’s means everything.

Now, focus.

I see a lot of people who have blogs, so they write posts.

I see a lot of people who are copywriters, so they write copy.

A lot of people who call themselves writers think it’s their job — in various senses of “job” — to put words together. They make sentences. Answer arguments. Explain features and benefits. Create dialogue.

But few ask, Why does what I’m doing matter? Or more to the point: What does it all MEAN?

The best writers have a purpose. They have a reason for doing what they’re doing.

Everything these people write is a right/left-brain fusion, a unique and beautiful thing that manages to convey a point AND express emotion AND drive a business outcome AND move the reader in one way or another.

The best writers don’t just assemble words. They assemble big ideas, and then use those ideas to do big things.

The best writers have a story.

They’ve experienced a life-changing event.

They’ve fought for their ideas.

They hit you with their words so hard, it’s like a violent encounter.

Jon Morrow told me once in an interview (which you can get right here), “When I’m writing a blog post, I literally imagine myself bludgeoning someone with a baseball bat. I want my words to hit them that hard … because you can’t ignore someone who’s hitting you with a baseball bat.”

The best writers want to change the reader.

If a person reads their words but leaves as the exact same person they were when they started reading, the very best writers feel like they have failed.

I want to change you here, today.

I want you to see that writing is the reason I’m here. It’s the reason I was put on this planet. It’s the reason I do what I do, and it’s the reason that, ultimately, I had to find a way to make writing work as my career.

I write almost every day, and I write a lot. I have to … because I don’t want to be reminded again what happens when I stop.

I want you, as a writer, to find that spark within yourself.

If you are a writer and have been simply “assembling words,” I’d like you to stop.

Focus.

And ask what your writing really means to you.

Put that meaning, that purpose, into what you write, and make others feel that meaning, that purpose.

Be bold. Be gentle. Be strong. Be compassionate. Be violent.

And start to change the world.

About the Author: Johnny B. Truant is a writer. You can sign up for his free series on how to start making more money with your own writing here.

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  1. Beautifully said. We can do so much with words that simply spitting out a blog post to fill some arbitrary SEO requirement is actually a huge disservice to our readers and ourselves.

    It’s funny, that sounds a lot like my story, except I never got as far in the science field as you did. After a few years as a microbiology major in college and a semester spent decoding the genome of a methanotropic bacteria, I got a pretty clear message from myself that the absolute, last thing I wanted was a career tucked away in some dingy lab, totally devoid of human contact.

    Not that the voice came out and said, “Hey – you’re actually supposed to be a writer…”. It’s taken me several career leaps to make it here, but I guess what matters is that I got here at all :)

    • I wish I’d seen it that early! It never made sense that I could actually make a living writing, though. Took a lot of trauma for me to force myself to learn that lesson.

    • “I got a pretty clear message from myself that the absolute, last thing I wanted was a career tucked away in some dingy lab, totally devoid of human contact.”

      Can relate to this really well, I had a job at a bank and even thought I was making good money the “locked away, relinquishing my time to something that I wasn’t enjoying” feeling made me leave to search for greener pastures.

    • Well, writing for me…has always been an art and I intend to keep it so. That’s how you bring out the best writer in you. Just for a fact, I am into finance and investment :-)

  2. Thank you so much for this post. I can’t even begin to describe how important it was to read your wonderful, inspiring words this morning. You hit the nail on the head—I’ve always wanted to write to change the world yet, somehow, I’ve let the routine of daily writing hammer that desire and focus out of my craft. And I didn’t realize that until now. Seriously, thank you.

  3. Awesome job. Well-written, too (but it had better be, huh? :).

    I’m with you in every step here, but what speaks most loudly is that “the best writers want to change the reader.” Booyah. Stories matter. Religions, memoirs, the lifecycle of the fruit fly–they’re all stories that help us understand our time here on the planet a little better. I write fiction myself, and stuff on my blog, but it’s all tied in with that spark you talk about–the higher mission. Changing the world.

    I love David Foster Wallace’s quote that “Fiction is about what it means to be a fucking human being.” I think the same kind of passion has to go with every kind of writing, from science journals to blog posts to poetry. That isn’t something that can be manufactured.

    Thanks for this post–I appreciate you putting this call out to us writers to make our work matter more. Off to get to it!

  4. Didn’t realize this was a guest post. Guess I skipped over that part. Great post, Johnny B!!! You are truly an inspiration to us all. I feel the same way about filmmaking. We have much the same story, although, the occupation and years are different….

    Of course, here in America, we don’t have to put our occupation on our marriage license ;)

  5. It is all about change and creating the space in other people that was not there before they read. Love this post. Great job, Johnny. I can’t stop writing so I stopped trying to quite long ago. Of course, trying never gets you anywhere.

  6. It’s difficult to do when your job is writing for others (which I love – but there is definitely *something* missing) but I am slowly and surely finding ways to express myself and be me in a way that is authentic and separate from growing my business. It’s a balance. I’ll never be a fiction writer – I don’t want to be – but I’m learning from great non-fiction writers. One day I’ll be able to change the world with writing for myself and not just my clients.Thanks for the great post and the food for thought.

    • I think you can do it when you’re writing for others, too. You don’t have to convey YOUR meaning all the time… you just want to convey meaning. If you were writing for a charity, you’d want to make people who read the copy feel the charity’s meaning and not just its dry mission, right?

  7. Thanks Johnny! I so needed to hear this today. What I’ve done as a coach for years is what I now want to do with my writing. Thing is I forget that it took time to hone my skills as a coach, and I get all impatient, wanting to speed up the process as a writer. I get caught up in the words instead of what I want most which is to make a difference.

    So today, I will be gentle and compassionate with myself. Tomorrow though? I’ll get back to the loving butt-kicking I’ve become known for. Thanks for sending a little of that my way!

  8. Be Epic!

    Johnny, that was an epic post! Good for you.

    P.S. Johnny Barista Truant

  9. Well said! Only, right now my job is reassembling someone else’s words. It’s an education.
    I’m ploughing on with my novel and your post makes me want to run right back to it, except that every time I rework a classic I learn something that (I hope) makes me a better writer. I try to hold back on my creative scribbles to instead get on with improving my knowledge of this craft. Maybe the two sides of my brain are having a fight? I don’t know if I want Kevin Bacon to win :-S John Lithgow was great in Bigfoot after all; he softened up eventually.

    • I’ll add that I personally don’t think it matters if the words you write that MEAN something see the light of day every time. Like my novel. Are you becoming more as a writer, and better able to touch and change people with the words that are spread? That’s what matters, I think.

      • Well I hope so. Giglets (new enterprise) has just launched. I’m writing in that I’m adapting great classics into essentially ‘short and straightfoward’ ebooks that can be read by children and adults.
        I’m a bit of a book geek and grew up loving lots of different classic books but more often nowadays I meet children and adults who find the language too difficult and the big thick book too scary to even attempt to read.
        So now I’m adapting classics and encouraging others to discover the brilliant stories that cost me the best part of my eyesight :-) They’re not really my words but I endorse the message. And yes, I’m becoming more as a writer, although I would also hope that my own novel will see the light of day (someday).
        Aren’t you tempted to revisit your novel? You’ve come far since you wrote it and if it’s as strong as your blog posts then you’re onto a winner :-)

  10. Thanks for being real. I agree that one of the toughest questions to answer is why am I doing what I’m doing. If you have the guts to ask the right questions it leads to great things.

    Great post.

  11. I enjoyed your post Johnny B.
    Not for sure if I am changed since I started reading it, but I am getting some left brain-right brain cross talking going on.
    It seems a little harsh, trying to wack my readers with a word/baseball bat. I try to bring peace, healing and serenity with my writing.
    Will have to re-frame that bat wacking idea:-)

    I will get at my blog while I have a bit of inspiration.

    Thank you! I do wish you all would do an audio version of all your posts!
    Happy writing for you today!

    MarVeena/Texas

  12. Thank you, Johnny. Just what I needed to hear this morning. Probably every morning. Probably every five minutes or so. Probably in lieu of coffee. Probably definitely.

  13. That interview with Jon Morrow is one of the best. It should be required listening. ;)

    Thanks for the story, Johnny. Will I meet you at Blog World?

  14. Last Saturday evening I attended an author presentation given By Andrew Laties at the Northshire bookstore in Manchester Vermont. Unfortunately there were fewer than ten people in the audience to participate in a discussion that is relevant to all our lives: the difficulties of recognizing, and following, the twisting path to satisfaction through creativity in whichever form our muse chooses for us.

    I bought Andy’s book ‘Rebel Bookseller’ afterwards. In it he chronicles –by turns a humorous and seriously eloquent narrative, the current environment that independent bookstores must operate in against a detailed backdrop of his own experience as a children’s theater performer and then owner of a highly visible and popular children’s bookshop in Chicago.

    Creativity and business are not mutually exclusive, but they’re difficult to balance, especially in an economic environment that does not favor the individual. What I’ve taken away from the book so far is that finding ones purpose, while at the same time satisfying the materials needs of existence, is a seductive challenge not to be underestimated in its difficulty, but one that is well worth the effort.

    Good luck and best wishes to all who are on their own quest.

  15. Love the last four lines of this post – especially:

    “Be bold. Be gentle. Be strong. Be compassionate. Be violent.
    And start to change the world.”

    YES. This is the kind of inspiration I need for my slacker writing. Thanks!

  16. Hah! I know this feeling all too well. I had to pry myself away from my regular academic masters-degree-level of writing and start writing for PEOPLE, not professors. It’s quite a shock to your grammatically-stern system when you do it at first, but the more you trudge along and leave those participles dangling, the better off you’ll be :)

  17. These are not confessions, but conclusive principles for for practice by would-be writers.

  18. Awesome post. I get the best insight through copyblogger’s email newsletter and this is one.

    I write both fiction and non-fiction, but your encouragement that writers have stories to tell is so true. I wrote a historical novel about the CCCs and I seem to have struck a nerve. People are coming up to me and telling me THEIR stories of their father, grandfather during those hard Depression times. It’s made my writing more meaningful and satisfying.

    I’ll be tweeting this. Thanks.

  19. I was actually surprised when I got to the end of this post that the author is JBT (no cussing:p).

    Admittedly, I’ve only read your posts when featured as guest posts, but I thought this one was really good. Well told, for sure, but more so because the story of anyone finding their true passion AND living it always uplifting, and who doesn’t want to read about that?

    If I imagine all of humanity in darkness, with only those who have found true love, passion, their core or true happiness walking around with a lit light bulb over their heads, I wonder how much light there would be.

    We need to light more light bulbs. And I think stories such as these get us closer to our own switch.

    • Great visualization Ritu. I think we – as Americans – are only a 1/2 lit…as opposed to other more free-spirited countries. I love the analogy and will start picturing people to see if they do come across as someone who “has the light on” so to speak.

      To Johnny B: This was such a moving post … I make a living by writing but it’s not an easy thing to do. Your inspirational story will also inspire me to do more selling. Because if I can’t sell my skills – mostly writing articles, bios, annual reports and case statements – then I can’t do what I truly love to do.

    • I love that you enjoyed this, but it makes me chuckle that you (and others!) were surprised it was written by me. I’m all crazy diverse. You never know what I’ll do next!

      • Yep, I didn’t know either, but it’s actually more fun that way, trying to guess who it is while you’re reading. The curiosity and intensity builds like a gripping mystery novel.

        Riveting stuff, Johnny. Thanks for your work.

  20. Wow, this was a powerful post. Thank you for sharing your story – I’m sure a lot of people, including myself, will resonate with your experiences.

    I’ve tried my entire life to avoid being a writer – I tried my hand out at photography, politics, even personal training – but I’ve always come back to writing. And this time around, I’m sticking with it.

    One of my least favorite things is when others ask me what I write – I usually end up stumbling on my words and sounding less intelligent than I’d like. From now on, I think I’ll tell them my purpose rather than exactly what I write.

  21. Wow, Johnny. I think you wrote what I’ve been thinking for a long time. I used to really enjoy writing, although I’ve never actually written something worth publishing. I went all the way through college, got my engineering degree, and now I’m working as an engineer. It’s a great career, but it’s not what I really want to do.

    I want to write, write, and write even more. I want to tell my story. I just don’t know how to get started. The experiences you’ve detailed in this post sounds like a little bit of what I went through when I got RIF’ed last year. Panic attacks, afraid of my own shadow, afraid of being left alone…I’m better now that I have a job, but I’m still not happy.

    I’m favoriting this post for sure! Thank you!

  22. Soooo, what your long drawn out post about blah, blah blah concluded with is, JUST WRITE DAMN IT!…

    I can dig it.

    I bet you still miss hustlin’ coffee at Borders though. You set up a stand in your basement and relive the glory days while crying about your fear of fruit flies….It’s ok bro, just write about it and don;t skimp on the feelings…

    Lastly. Tell Jon to put the bat down.

  23. I REALLY enjoyed this post. I’ve never been a writer, actually hated writing before. However since I started my blog (on interior design) I’ve begun discovering that I have a message that I want to share and writing is one of the best ways to do it. It was cool when I realized that Johnny wrote the post. I was introduced to you through Chris Guilebeau’s Empire Building Kit. Congrats on your success and for being willing to do the unimaginable!

  24. I got teary-eyed reading this, Johnny B.

    So glad the fruit flies got to you (so that you’d come back to writing). And so glad I had my own fruit fly experience – because damn, writing DOES matter!

    Now I need to go find that baseball bat interview – can’t get enough inspiration!

    Thanks for this!!

  25. Beautifully written!!

  26. Johnny,
    What can I say?

    You rock!

    I’ve seen one of your posts in Marie Forleo’s blog and I think I just LOVE your articles. They have something that I can’t really explain. The attitude and the power behind your words, it’s just amazing…

    You teach people how to hit readers with a baseball bat, and you really know how to do that. Your words are more than just words. I don’t know maybe it has something to do with short sentences and…street language (idk really what’s the proper word but I think you got it). It’s like a real conversation.
    Blog posts should be like these: Imagine you are sitting in a pub with your friends – and you are telling them a story. It’s a good quideline for all writers

    thanks!

  27. Very good. Straddling the fence of writing for a living and writing for creative joy has been my twenty-five year teetering affair. Writing the way I tell it has become my waving flag, I am happy to report.

    I used to nice it up, and be a well-behaved “freelance writer” by jumping onto other people’s half-baked stories and trying to make them work. NO MORE! I am issuing myself a new brand story that makes sense with what I am capable of doing. I cannot fix stories that are cockamamied to begin with but I can certainly weave a tale with great internal logic that moves people to fall into the story’s net.

  28. Too late! I’d already followed in your footsteps before I knew you’d made them.

    Not only could I have written this post (substituting E. coli for every mention of fruit flies), but I DID write this post. Every week on my blog, I implore people to step away from the bad careers and enjoy themselves.

    We need more people to tell this story before they’ll be brave enough to jump.

    Keep writing. :)

  29. Hey, Johnny, fabulous post. It makes me breathless, but in a good way.

    I didn’t look at who wrote it until I was done reading it and, strangely, it doesn’t come across as the writing I typically read on your blog. While I like your blog style, I really love this. :)

  30. I write copy for a living. Sadly, I’ve realized that pursuing this career diminished the inspiration I once felt, which resulted in poetry (the kind of waking-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-with-a-burning-poem kind of writing).
    Writing poetry, I didn’t try to change the world. I just HAD to express mine.
    Writing copy, I supposedly affect people’s minds, but there’s rarely any passion involved (probably because I mourn the loss of my poetic inspiration).
    I know this is a complex question, but – Is There A SOLUTION?

  31. I have only met a few talented writers and I’m sure they would agree with everything you have said. When my son graduated with a degree in “creative writing”, he told me that he would be happy living in a small apartment for the rest of his life as long as he could write. I just shook my head and wondered how long I would have to support him. It has turned out well for him and I’m delighted that he followed his dream.

  32. It’s a brave writer who can go this deep with everything.

    Who can say, Make even our tweets count.

    When we start to attend that way, our writing does change, I agree. But there’s so many production options out there now that recapturing this level of focus is sometimes hard.

  33. I couldn’t agree more. I have just started writing and, although I have messed around with some word assembling, my posts that are the most impacting had purpose! The funny thing is when you try to write something that changes people, you can change yourself in the progress.

    Great Post! I hope to see more like it.

    Ben

  34. I could so identify with this. I earned a Master’s degree in a field that has helped clothe and feed me for decades. But I have always been the one to write whether it be letters or thank-you notes, paragraphs in my childrens’ baby books, scrapbook vignettes for special occasions, speeches and since I owned my own business even advertising. I work part time now but rush home on those days or spend nearly all my time when I am not at work, writing, writing and writing. Blog posts, a second book, workshop info and no matter what I do or don’t get paid for, the time flies and I enjoy every minute I am writing. Nothing in my degree career made me feel as productive and I have a very satisfying and personally productive JOB.
    I knew I loved writing whenever I would have a blog post title pop into my mind at 3 a.m. and I could simply not wait until morning to get it done. I often think someone who has finished writing something I wish I would never end reading has done more for my happiness than they realize. I know my lips could never find the words to speak as well as my fingers find the ones to write.

  35. Donna Patterson :

    Nothing like being slapped back into reality. The reality that writers should be writing to touch the soul. To make a difference. To inspire. To educate. To humor. To bring into someone’s life the pleasure of beautifully crafted words that move the inactive, inspire the depressed, encourage the one lacking confidence.

    It’s has taken me a long time to believe that my ideas, written with passion and purpose, were worthy of being published. But I took the plunge and currently have one book and 4 shorts on Kindle … And they’re selling.

    Your article today encouraged me today, more than ever, to write, write, write. But doing so with fire in the bones to produce work worthy of being called a writer.

    Thanks so much

  36. Brilliant post, it sounds very similar to my own story, except I’m a photographer (how good does it feel to say that you are doing what you really want to do) who was stuck in an IT career.

  37. Thanks for the great post Johnny! I spent 22 years in a legal environment where I created a lot of original work for judges and lawyers, and by the time I finally pulled the plug on the monotony I all but ran out the door. I’ve been in another endeavor for a few years now and write as an expert in my industry, but I’m finally pulling that plug and getting into full-time writing in a new online business I’m creating. It’s extremely liberating but I know I have a lot to learn, which is why I so dig reading everything from Copyblogger. That plus it’s incredibly interesting and just plain fun. Thanks again for the great post. You’re clearly doing what you were meant to do.

  38. Wow. Excellent post. Just the kick in the pants I’ve needed. I’ve always felt I should be a writer, but only recently have begin to really move into action. I’m in this for the long haul, I’ve wasted far too much time already. Thank you for confirming some things for me!

  39. Great post!

    You say that you regard writing as an art – in this context I regard you as a great artist!!!

  40. Johnny, I enjoyed this post! It was funny, inspirational and completely “real life”! It was personable and easy to relate to you, as I am too finding my voice as a writer/author. I felt what you wrote.

    Thank You!

  41. Very inspirational post. You definitely have a way with words and I dont think that anyone would question that you were born to write! :]

  42. This post was beyond awesome. I couldn’t wait to read the next line and it was an emotional roller coaster for me all the way.

    Mission accomplished Johnny.

    First I will share it. Then I shall tuck it away under “my most favourite posts ever” and call it up again when I need to feel inspired or need to copy–I mean write–a storytelling post that will blow my readers away!

    Kudos.

  43. I write because I was born to write. I can’t NOT write. Writing has been my escape, my healing, and it has served to entertain or bring healing to others. Someday, I hope that I can make a living to some extent off of my writing, But you’re right…I don’t consider myself an artist. I may paint with words, but it’s a lot of work to compile a story together and so much to consider when writing a novel. Art stays far from my mind when I think of writing.

  44. Wow, I write a nonfiction blog about reptiles and I thought I was doing a pretty good job. Then I read the part in your post about bludgeoning people with a bat! Now that is what I need to be doing. The site is relaunching in September and you can bet, there will be some serious changes and ass kicking going now! Thanks so much for putting into perspective.

  45. After reading this post, I feel like I have just been kicked in the gut. For the past few days I’ve been struggling with in my inner writer. For years I have been denying her because of life, but when I deny the writer in me, I’m drawn to her more and more.

    I was born to write, my earliest memory was when I was seven, and I made up stories for my book reports (which you can read on my blog). The excitement that I felt while creating worlds was all I needed to keep me happy.

    Reading this, reminds me of why I write. It’s not a job, or something that I’m obligated to do. It’s something that I have to do. Without writing, I can’t say that my life is complete.

  46. Interesting that you consider creating nonfiction is ‘twisting writing into something unnatural.’ I couldn’t disagree more. But then again, I find fiction writers to be self-absorbed people who live in a world of their own. It’s harder to write non-fiction, for me anyway, because you’re exposing your real self to the world, not just rearranging things that didn’t go your way, re-creating a world you’d prefer. After all, what is your blog post but a stringing together of words, not quite in this case like the pearls I imagine, in a nonfiction manner?
    I do, however, appreciate your use of the wars of the cerebral spheres. How well I can relate.
    Never in my life have I asked another writer or wanna-be if what they’re doing makes a difference. It doesn’t matter. I know exactly why I write, why I have written since I could hold a pen. The same is true more than 30 years later. Sorry you chose to go through that; must have been a remnant from the battle of the cerebral halves. Good for you, however, for realizing that it was why you were ‘put on this planet.’
    My words are pearls. They are my favorite jewels. These I’m proud to string together, to assemble, to align. There is, after all, no perfect way to do it, but surrounding one’s self with all that pulchritude can only lead to its proliferation.
    Much luck with selling writing that makes you happy.

    • Woah, hey, no need to get defensive… the intro was written as me in the past and isn’t meant to be taken as what I believe today. That was the “before” — the way of thinking that led to panic attacks. Not exactly something I’m eager to keep thinking now.